Moody...

These few days, im quite moody and i also dunoe why..haiz... at nite cant slp oso... its passed 2am and i haven slp yet.. but i definately know that its not becoz of work.. or m i tinking too much? or m i feeling that i dun have any sense of security?? who knows?? these few days.. i keep dreaming of brennen.. and i oways wake up wif tears .. =( haiz.. once, i dreamt that a gal asked me to leave brennen coz she loves him alot.. and ask me to back off!

:'( sob sob... izit becoz of PMS? haiz.. i oso dunoe.. or mayb i should juz take a break? and leave the country for awhile?

actually, brennen's parents, bro and gf are going to Beijing in march.. i was tinking to go anot.. but in the end, i gave an excuse that i will be bz wif my work.. the fact is that, taking a few days off wouldn't kill.. but juz dun feel like going without brennen... brennen had started to fly in dec.. and hes in Mel nw..

haiz. evensince he started flying, nw gt lesser and lesser time to see him liao.. sad man.. it looks like on difference from him having hes training.. well.. im not complaining, as i noe that it's hes job.. looks like i juz have to get use to it lor.. or izit that i had put in so much until i felt so 'tired' nw.. haiz.. i oso dunoe lah...

fuck man.. blog until i wana cry.. tmd..

k.. hope dat i can get to slp 2nite.. else will need to take my flu tablets to get to slp or have a glass of volka? haha...

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*Cant Zzzz...*