Sad...

Well.. Right now i felt beter.. but i was still controlling my tears about 5hrs ago.. =(

Last monday when i met up wif Caryl and Janet, they were still telling me that I had changed alot since poly days.. My temper, my character etc.. But i also don't know why i reacted like that juz nw..

By right I should be watching movies wif Marie and friends.. But something happen which ended up i didnt watch the movie eventhough the tiks were bought.. =(

We went to PS to buy movie tiks, then after buying movie tiks, we were looking for food..

While looking for food, i passed Marie and Eric the invitation card.. I did feel bad.. coz i spelled Eric's surname wrongly.. then he asked me lots and lots of qns on the card, like hw come this, hw come that?? Very fastruating!! Brennen and I had put in so much effort on these cards and so many complaints!!! At that moment, i felt he is the one whom does not appreciate this card at all.. We had put in so much effort on those sleepless weekends doing the card...

I gt so fed up that i snatched the card back.. and i walked off wif tears rolling.. I told them i go to draw $$ but then i left after telling Pansy that I'm nt feeling well and I'm going hme..

Maybe you can say i was too worked out over small matter as Eric oways joke around.. but this time, i felt that this joke had hurt me too much.. =(

I was hanging outside PS, weeping and trying to calm myself down.. But its very painful.. very hurting.. I don't mean to create difficult position for Marie as one side is her good friend and on the other side is her hubby.. I know she is very vexed..

I also don't know what to say... Haiz.. Am I realli too worked out?

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So many things happening recently which i felt that i realli reached my max!!

When people asked me whether I'm excited?? well.. I'm tired..

In another 9 more days will be the wedding.. and another 2 weeks will be the wedding dinner... and nw i still receiving sms frm pp telling me their partners cant come.. Haiz.. Give me a break can??

Brennen is flying back frm Cape town nw.. Later still need to go meet Linn to decide on the PS album cover.. then go meet electrican..

Brennen oso need to face alot of pressure due to hes line and base check next week which is very important to him.. I try not to bother him too much, so that he can concentrate in hes stuffs..

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Ok.. gona sleep nw..still go a long day ahead later...

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*Hurt...*